An old song I wrote for an old friend...thought I'd share

I recently had a conversation about some childhood friends who have passed or sadly taken their lives. I know, it is a disturbing conversation but it caused me to remember a song I wrote after my dear friend Anthony [Ant] from college passed away. He was such a warm soul who was just a big teddy bear. He had so much entusiasm for life paired with an enormous passion for the arts. He always left his heart wide open, just waiting for someone to fill it. After we graduated he began dating a new girl he was soooo excited about. It turns out she was into drugs and sadly he joined in. Anthony's passed in his sleep one night. They said it was a drug overdose and he just never woke up.

I couldn't believe it when I heard the news. I can remember when I was working on my very first demo senior year in college. I was having a frustrating day with the vocals on one song. He came in the studio and pulled me aside and said "Kim, you know you can kill this" He said "Sing it like it were the last time you ever could, as if the world was ending and you had only one take to get it right" so I did and nailed it. This is just one example of his constant support and belief in others. I remember when I did that first project "bits and pieces". They were the very first songs I had ever writen I recorded them before I even played them out live. I was so nervous to share them but Ant always made me feel that I had something with music and so I would play them for him and it really helped me to see that this was something I had to do. I was always greatful for that.

Anyways I wrote these lyrics about a month after his death. [late summer 2002] I don't play it much anymore. Not sure why but. I'd like to revise it at some point but anyways, here are the lyrics.

Also just to note. Anthony was a singer. He rapped and wanted to be a hip hop star. He was great too. His stage name was "Lucky"

"LUCKY" [2002]

Lucky couldn't beat the light that night
Spirits seeping through his veins, sting tonight
I wonder what he saw when they tucked him in,
to then begin to seep under his skin

You were a power pushing me to see
that all my little pieces were
put together right in front of me.
And I knew yours were too,
they were falling into place

Lucky to have mirrored in your site
Lucky to have watched you in your greatest light
Oh Lucky, why can't you speak tonight?

Your face was always lit so bright
as if today were the last time you rhymed it right
You said sing it, like the last time you could
So I did, I did it cuz of you

Lucky to have mirrored in your site
Lucky to have watched you in your greatest light
Oh Lucky, why can't you speak tonight?

We go about our day it's ok
But I feel you behind me
Pushing me to be all I could be
Oh you, you beleived in me
Oh lucky

Oh, Lucky
I feel you here tonight